Kayson: Month One

My sweet boy, you are just over a month old. You have brought so much joy to me and your daddy. It has been a hard adjustment to have a newborn and everything that comes along with being a new parent but it has been the best time in my life. I love you so, so, much and I tell you that all the time.  “Mama loves you so much!”, “Are you my great big handsome boy?”, “You are such a good boy”, “Daddy loves you so, so much too!”. “Does Grandma love you so much?” (all Grandmas included), “Does Grandpa love you so much?” Aunts, uncles, cousins, etc. followed by “YES, they do!”, “Mama and daddy are SO happy we have you!” These are some of the things I tell you all the time and if I am lucky enough I will get a great big smile from you.  You just barely started having purposeful smiles earlier this week and every time you do it, it melts my heart.  You look up at me with those great big eyes (which I still think are going to be brown) and you look at me so content and it makes me feel that you truly do love me.

You are getting to be such a big boy!  You have gained weight and grown so tall.  At 3.5 weeks you were 9 lbs. 11 oz. and I know you’ve grown since then.  You have outgrown all your newborn clothes and are now wearing 0-3 months and some 3 month old clothes.  You are going to be a strong little boy.  Your neck is already so strong; you always try and hold it up by yourself.  You have the strongest grip and kicks!  The other morning I went into your room and you had kicked your way up to the top of the crib. You sleep with your hands above your head and it’s so dang cute.  It makes me smile every time I come in to check on you while you’re sleeping.  You are sleeping pretty good most nights.  You wake up about every 3 hours to eat.  You usually just want to stay awake for a while (an hour usually) and be held and rocked to sleep.  It’s hard to get up sometimes but once I am up I love that time of night because I feel like we get to bond so much as I cuddle you, rock you, and sing to you.  Some of the ones I always sing to you are “I’m a Child of God”, “I Stand All Amazed”, “Child’s Prayer”, “I Hope they Call me on a Mission”, and “I love to see the Temple”.  We play Pandora internet radio on the country station sometimes because you don’t like total silence.  You sleep pretty well through noise, even when Bella barks. You love cuddling up to us and lying on our chests, that’s your favorite spot. You’re starting to make lots of fun cooing sounds and it seems like you just want to talk to us.

I haven’t been nursing you very often because it has still been hurting quite a bit.  I have been pumping and giving it to you in a bottle and then I have also been giving you some formula.  I went into a lactation specialist and they said that you are tongue tied.  They said that may be affecting the way you are nursing and maybe that’s why it’s been painful. We need to take you into the pediatrician to see what she thinks. You LOVE to eat!  When you decide you are hungry you want it right then.  If we have to wait for the bottle to warm up you get so frantic and shake your head back and forth and stick your fingers and fist in your mouth as you cry.  It’s so cute; daddy and I can’t help but laugh when you do it.

You love your daddy so much!  You recognize his voice and many times when you are fussing and daddy takes you, you calm right down.  He is such a proud daddy!  He always carries you around when we are out in public and he shows you off to everyone.  We’ve taken you out everywhere.  You’ve been to so many football games of Uncle BJ’s, Dad’s softball game, Tucano’s restaurant, Chuck-A-Rama, Café Rio, Magelby’s Fresh, Target many times (that’s my favorite place to take you), the mall, Great-Grandma Monson’s, Great-Aunt Kathy’s, Great-Grandma and Grandpa Williams, Great-Grandma and Grandpa Frampton’s, Grandma Jodi and Grandpa Howard’s, Grandma Julie and Grandpa Bret’s house, and Aunt Aubrie and Uncle Corey’s house.  You definitely are not a home-body.  Daddy always lies on the couch with you after work and holds you.  You two have watched many football games together already and he’s been watching the Presidential Debates with you (Mitt Romney and Barak Obama).  I’m glad that he has somebody to watch those things with; you don’t seem to mind as long as daddy has you.  Daddy gets up with you at night too and he changes so many diapers.  He gives you bottles for me.  When he gets home from work he always comes and gives us both kisses then he takes you from me and loves you.  I’m so lucky to have him as a husband and you’re so lucky to have him as a daddy.

You have had so many little cousins/friends be born lately, you’re so lucky.  Jaden Green is just a couple of weeks older than you, Peyton Hooley is a few weeks younger than you, and Haylee Wilkes was just born yesterday!  There are so many others that will be born soon too.

Kayson, your daddy and I love you so much.  We are so eternally grateful for you.  I feel so blessed to have you in my life.  I thank Heavenly Father all the time for sending you to me. I feel so blessed that we can be sealed to you for time and all eternity. I hope you always remember how much we love you and remember how much Heavenly Father loves you.