Wednesday, July 18, 2012

I know I'm pregnant because...

·         I want to cry, all the time.  I usually don’t know if I’m happy or sad.  Actually I’m usually both.  My thoughts go so rapidly from being so miserably pregnant to feeling guilty that I feel miserable and feeling like I should be grateful, which I am.  Then I worry about if something goes wrong with the baby.  Then I worry about if something were to happen to Cody.  Then I’m a mess because I don’t know how to feel with all of these thoughts going through my head in a matter of seconds.

·         I found myself muttering under my breath about how Cody always leaves the cupboard doors open, that is one of my biggest pet peeves.  I about lost it when I was done doing dishes and the cupboard door was open.  I don’t know why he always does that!  Somehow he managed to sneak out of the shower and do it all while I was doing dishes without me knowing it.  Then I realized it is really me that is my biggest pet peeve (I am only now realizing this).

·         The same night I was putting a load of laundry in.  After I sorted through two huge piles of clothes to find what I needed Cody mentioned that he needed socks.  Seriously?! After I just went through those piles you tell me this?!  Let’s just say I never used to be this testy.

·         The other day I was in bed and rolled over while looking down at my belly.  I gasped.  Then I started laughing hysterically because I had forgotten how big it was.  Then I started to cry.

·         Cody will tell you that my favorite quote these days is, “I’m HUNGRY!”

·         I can’t ever get comfortable in bed.  I’m used to laying on my belly while I sleep.  I’ve been trying to train myself for months to sleep on my side but I still haven’t gotten used to it. 

·         I wake up in the middle of the night obsessing over crazy things.  Last night I woke up obsessing that I needed to go buy pads right then because I forgot that I would have to wear them after I had the baby.  I am constantly worrying about what we need to still get for the nursery and the baby.

·         People tell me I look bigger every day.  Well guess what people… I FEEL bigger every day.

·         I have really vivid dreams.  The other night I dreamed that our baby had just barely come home from the hospital and Cody’s little sisters were feeding him candy!  I was livid. Haha.

·         I noticed that once you get a ring on your finger the number of guys that check you out at the store dramatically decreases.  Just wait until you have a baby bump.  You barely get eye contact from men- they’re too busy trying to dart away from the closest pregnant lady.

·         You get to have dessert after every meal, if you want it. Ice cream 3 times a day is completely reasonable if you ask me.

·         I feel like I need physical touch… but then I can hardly stand when Cody tries to cuddle me because I get so claustrophobic.

·         I’ve forgotten half of the list I wanted to write.  I am always trying to “pin” my thoughts in my head before I forget them.  Dang it… if only that worked!

As a side note:

I am incredibly grateful for this little guy and I can’t wait to be a mommy.  These are just a few of the crazy things that happen when I’m pregnant.  There are so many fun things that go along with pregnancy.  I love feeling our little guy move and I love it when Cody can feel him too.  I have loved being able to see him on the ultrasounds;  It makes it feel so real.  I love seeing his heart flutter and hearing it beat, I love seeing him move around like crazy.  I know that he is going to be a stubborn little guy (just like his parents) because so far he’s definitely proved to be stubborn.  We love him so much and we can’t wait to be parents!